If i was made for you,
why was it so easy to walk away?
If I’m custom made,
I shouldn’t be returned.
You went with the used,
and this order is delayed.
Picked up and mislaid,
Forever adjourned.
I was built to fit the shape of your hands,
but you dropped me effortlessly.
I fell to all your commands,
and you left me carelessly.
Tailored to fit you perfectly,
but swapped for the one that doesn’t fit.
It played out so deliberately,
and wishing you would’ve commit.
Custom made is the most expensive price,
never find the perfect match.
Always looking for the fine details,
which you’ll never find in another.
Now you’ll have your final vice,
while wishing you could detach.
Not appreciating what custom made entails,
but hopefully you’re happy with the other.
Poems
What You Didn’t Keep
Resilience of nature after an Ice Age
Emotional depth of the unexplored oceans
Giving like the infinite time
Support of a foundation-sturdy and strong
A guiding path of a compass
Heartbeats that are loyal to life
Laughter that provides sunshine on dark days
Dedication of the roots deep into the soil
Passion of earth’s magma uncontrollably bursting
Attraction of the tide to the moon
Warmth of the hearth in the coldest winter
Love of the vow chosen and kept
Understanding as a lens four a better view
Reflective of the trees that dance on a calm lake
Strength of a mountain growing with resistance
Motivation of a spark that burns the fuel
Calm of the deep breath relaxing before bed
Giggles that escape seeing confetti fall
Carefree as a bird in the summer air
Loyalty outlasting the North Star
Bravery as a soldier guarding the Unknown Soldier
Protector from all of life’s weathered storms
Beautiful as the Northern Lights
Rarer than nature’s made snowflake
Trustworthy bedrock-never shifting
Kind like sunlight through dark clouds
Dependable as a lighthouse, guiding ships
Respectful let’s voice in a quiet library
Patient water wearing down stone
Wise old maps that tell history
Curious with childlike growth
Encouraging like the wind pushing on your back
Reliable just as the earth turns
Fair like a perfectly balanced scale
Indifference
I’ll never leave you.
You’re unlike anyone else.
I’ll wait forever for you.
I’m coming back.
Never leaving your side.
This is as special as you.
Be in my life forever.
I bought it for you,
I’d never live up to what you deserve.
I’ve never been enough for anyone, even you.
You deserve all the great things.
The biggest heart I’ve ever met.
I’d give it all for you.
Unlike anyone else.
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This isn’t goodbye.
This is see you later.
I can’t do this.
Everything you know is here.
I can’t do this.
I’m sorry.
There are things you don’t understand.
You don’t want to move.
I’m not worthy.
It’s not my choice.
You don’t understand.
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The silence to the noise.
The lies to the truth.
The stillness in the chaos.
My Gravity
From the first embrace,
I felt calm like a flowing creek.
The conversations ran deeper
Than the deepest unexplored oceans.
A connection that pulled me in
Stronger than the Earth’s gravity.
The first touch of your hand
Felt like an electrical shock
That ran deep in my soul.
The first smile that radiated
Like the sun in the summer.
A kiss so magnetic
It pulled together polar opposites.
Lost in ecstasy so high
I lost myself in another realm.
Reconnecting felt like floating.
In a calming river surrounded by nature.
Security is stronger than the purest diamond.
The first twirl and dance together
Was freeing and full of pure elation.
The breeze blew through my hair.
As you wrapped your arms around me.
We strolled through the streets
like time didn’t exist.
The stare from your eyes is so intense
Feeling like a cracked dam ready to burst.
I yearned for you and you for me
Like the tide of the ocean for the moon.
Watching you smile and play
Like a newborn learning happiness.
You pulled me close
And my head falls back in joy.
The instant connection
Like stars in a constellation.
Watching you was like
Watching a warrior winning ground:
Strength, determination,
Pride, and fearless.
You pull me in
Fitting like a piece of a puzzle:
The perfect fit, completing each other.
Pulsing euphoria with your embrace.
Taking risks greater than
Climbing Mt. Everest,
But I felt safe…
Safer than I ever felt in my life,
Even more than a baby in a womb.
Staring intensely into your eyes
Watching the stories build inside.
Your hands wrap around me
Engulfing me like the ocean and land.
I craved you like the need for oxygen
And you me like a body needs a heart.
Nothing ever felt so perfect and so right.
I lost myself completely without trying.
My mind is traveling to worlds
Of pure divinity.
I fall into you, losing myself
Like a glove with no hand.
And lie on your chest
Listening to your calming heartbeat
Making music like famous composers.
Feeling your chest rise and fall
Like shadows with the sunrise and sunset.
Your arm wrapped around me like the most secure blanket.
Your lips on my forehead as soft
As snow settles on the ground:
Calming, quiet, and soft, building a new life.
Waking up, feeling you care for me
Like the sun caring for natural life.
Aching the separation that’s to come
Like fault lines breaking the land.
Wishing time could still,
like water turning to ice,
Just to keep this moment.
The yearn and need deeper than
A desert needing rain.
I beg that life will bring you back
Like the phases of the moon:
returning with a steady pace.
You changed me
Like a compass next to iron.
And I’ll never be the same
Like ash becoming part of soil.
And I’ll disappear at your request
But long for you like an unlocked
Door in an abandoned building.
And I’ll keep trying to pull away
Failing because you’re my gravity.
Deprived
Deprived of air when drowning,
unable to comprehend the feeling.
Thoughts dancing in your head, shouting,
leaving you reeling.
Deprived of being truly sated,
you craved from the moment we met.
Now you’re left feeling sedated,
living with daily thoughts of regret.
You need me like fish need water,
like humans need oxygen.
Now your heart is going through slaughter,
wishing to see me once again.
I was everything you dreamed of,
but now you’re deprived.
I was your soul tie, twin flame love,
and I’m not sure it can be revived.
I’m Fine (But Not Okay)
Verse 1
The morning air feels like winter now,
Another day of numb feeling.
A smile appears when I allow
All it does is keep concealing.
People say I’m strong,
But they don’t see what I hide.
I’ve been breaking all along,
Still, I push these feelings aside.
Chorus
I’m fine, but not okay,
It’s a facade I portray.
I’ll make it, I always do,
No matter how much it breaks me in two.
I’m fine, which is what I’ll say,
But inside I fade away.
I’ll keep playing in this game show,
Because surviving’s all I know.
Verse 2
The mirror shows a ghost,
Eyes really tell the truth.
But deep down, the truth haunts,
Fighting my internal thoughts.
Hope’s a flame slowly withering away,
But still burning in some way.
Every night I take a deep breath,
As I wait for my sudden death.
Chorus
I’m fine, but not okay,
It’s a facade I portray.
I’ll make it, I always do,
No matter how much it breaks me in two.
I’m fine, which is what I’ll say,
But inside, I fade away.
I’ll keep playing in this game show,
Because surviving’s all I know.
Bridge
And maybe someday I’ll feel light,
When the thoughts don’t make me want to fight.
But till, I’ll play pretend,
Smile through storms that never end.
Chorus
I’m fine, but not okay,
It’s a facade I portray.
I’ll make it, I always do,
No matter how much it breaks me in two.
I’m fine, which is what I’ll say,
But inside, I fade away.
I’ll keep playing in this game show,
Because surviving’s all I know.
Outro
I’m fine…
But not okay.
Never Enough
I unstitched my soul, thread by thread,
Unveiled the bruises where my heart had bled.
You watched, and listened, as I stressed
That I’ve never been enough, even at my best.
I placed my truth in your open heart,
A fragile thing we never meant to start.
You showed empathy and held me close,
And let you see my darkest shadows.
My words hung heavy, raw and bare,
“I’m broken,” I strongly declared.
You turned away, unmoved, no regard
While I stood bleeding and scarred.
Now echoes haunt the hollow space
Where once I begged for your embrace.
I gave you all, my breath, my trust
But love was never for me to entrust.
So go, walk on, and leave me here,
Among the ghosts of what was sincere.
I bared it all, my ruin, my pain,
And you walked away, leaving me in chains.
11/29/2025
Our Purpose
Sometimes life is a lantern,
meant to guide those in need.
When some feel abandoned,
we come to intercede.
Our purpose won’t scream,
and make itself known.
It comes to us through quiet dreams,
and we’ll admire it like a precious stone.
We aren’t prisoners to one calling,
as there are so many constellations.
When we find it, it can be enthralling,
and it’ll impact future generations.
Every shadow, even flawed, has purpose,
but it may not make sense in the moment.
Not living life is a disservice;
we all reach atonement.
Every bad thing that happens is a message,
and every good thing is a reward.
We’ll always get out of the wreckage,
because we’ll always be restored.
We’re all bound to reflect on life,
like, “Why are we here?”
Purpose carved in glory and strife,
and walking through joy and fear.
11/20/2025
Broken to Brilliant
You broke what you held,
yet I grew golden from the damage.
Now you drown in the bye you compelled,
but now I have the advantage.
Thiving came to me private,
showing me I can be self-reliant.
No longer am I compliant.
I’m more myself and vibrant.
My laughter fills the sky with every hue,
because of all the hurt I outgrew.
Life has felt more anew,
despite everything I’ve been through.
I’ll sing and dance in the rain,
and I won’t hold any disdain.
And this is how I shall remain.
This is all I’ve ever wanted to attain.
The light in me that faded is now radiant.
Others say I’ve never been so vibrant.
Finally feeling like I’m in alignment.
I’m out of my own confinement.
11/19/2025
Haunting Memories
She was rare, and I lost it
Crossing my mind all the time
True love gone, my heart’s accosted
Replaying our moments like a crime
I found what I was missing in her,
But threw it away for familiar
A love and world I longed for
My heart aches and is bitter
I check on her time and again
Wondering if there’s still a chance
Caught with the echoes, I can’t abstain
Trapped in memory, hoping for one more dance
Inside jokes haunt every corner
Laughing like kids, young again
Now I’ve become a silent mourner
Longing for memories that transcend
I miss her smell and the way she tastes
The moments with her, I still embrace
I miss the laugh and smile on her face
A feeling no one will ever replace
The way she used to hold me close
Her eyes stared into my soul
Chemistry and love, I miss the most
Piercing deep, lingering, dark, and whole
She understood me like no one else
Two people bound to meet as one
Touched my soul, I hid from myself
A story written that can’t be undone
I miss her more than words can say
Haunted by the wrong choice
My heart yearns and feels betrayed
Regrets shadow follows, paying the price
Watching her breathe as she sleeps
Calming my once rabid beast
Dreams untouched, my heart leaps
Held my chaos with peace
The way her body reacts to mine
Craving for her soft skin
Every touch feels divine
The touch pulls me to sin
Walking the streets hand in hand
Pulling her close, letting silence speak
Side by side in a moment, we don’t understand
Moments like this are all I seek
Baring my soul for her to judge
Waiting for her to run away
As she accepted me for who I was
Lost in regret, words can’t convey
From the first conversation, I fell in love
She was so different than anyone before
Feeling so deep, I only dreamt of
Her presence changed my inner core
She had everything I searched for
A free spirit, even though hurt deep
The missing piece I adore
A love so fierce, I long to keep
Every goodbye was harder
But the last ripped me apart
The pain of bye leaves me scarred
The choice I made now tears my heart
11/18/2025
Revert Time
There’s a chill in the air,
as if your eyes trace my outline.
You’ve stepped into my snare,
and now we’re intertwined.
Just make the move you long for,
and I’ll be yours forevermore.
This happened by chance,
and it took me by surprise.
An unforgettable romance,
no one else has been able to provide.
And I can’t seem to let it go,
your memory haunts me in the undertow.
You found pieces of me I kept hidden,
but you opened them with ease.
In places where pain had ridden,
you touched my heart and brought me peace.
With you, I could be myself,
all the parts guarded, you knew well.
A side of me I forgot existed
happiness and laughter that’s been missing.
A spark, awakened, no longer resisted
a warmth returning and glistening.
I’m a fool for you,
and I’d do anything you asked me to.
It was a connection like no other,
like discovering my long-lost friend.
Souls that recognized each other,
an unexpected beginning I didn’t intend.
But it all crashed down,
silence echoing where love once drowned.
When did it all go wrong?
Was it all in my head?
Was the answering whispering all along?
Was it hope held by a fragile thread?
Just another name to add to the list,
Once was bliss, now a ghost in the mist.
Do I suffocate myself or let it go?
I don’t want to try anymore.
Do I vanish or watch myself grow?
I thought I found something worth fighting for.
This was an unexpected attack,
a hit that has a lasting impact.
And now I’m here in silence, alone.
The sun never rises, always midnight.
Quiet memories we used to call our own,
my heart swallowed by the void of light.
An emptiness that lingers within,
finding love, I’ll never win.
I know the way you watch
tells me everything you won’t say aloud.
Burns in your heart and mine like a torch
a longing whisper of words you won’t allow.
If fate allowed, I ache for those moments
their echoes remain, stubborn and torments.
It’s a battle I fight every day,
wishing to wipe my mind clean before you came.
Storms are brewing inside and won’t go away,
thoughts undone, every thought aflame.
Despite the pain, I wouldn’t revert time;
every memory was sublime and made my soul climb.
11/17/2025
Breathless
I love you
the kind that builds a hunger.
A way that makes me subdue,
the kind that makes me call upon a slumber.
I’m not in love,
but you awaken something in me
Without you, I’m destitute of
the feeling of being sultry.
A darkness that comes to light
comes out when you step closer.
Feeling like I need to requite,
but you make my insides take over.
With you, I’m unafraid,
discovering a new side.
Others I always forbade,
with you, my body just replied.
My body burns like a wildfire.
taking over ever engulfing.
Needing you feels dire
because it’s so indulging.
I know this is nothing but bad news,
and I know it’ll end in disaster.
And yet, my body and mind can’t refuse.
but you make my heart feel vaster.
For you, I’d become reckless
innocence and pride left in ruin.
I can’t help that you leave me breathless,
you’ve made me feel like I need persecution.
I crave the chemistry
the way it coils through me.
You make me act contemptuously,
making my insides scream like a banshee.
The only secret my body understands,
the stare into my eyes, arm around my waist.
Can’t help but listen to your commands,
forever you’ll be encased.
Say my name a certain way,
and suddenly I come undone.
My mind goes into disarray,
what have you begun?
Because loving you like this,
in sparks, shadows, and where propriety breaks,
I can’t help but often reminisce.
It’s the only way my mind and body escapes.
I’m willing to fall a little lower
and lose myself for the feeling I love.
Losing my mind and all my composure,
we fit together like a perfect glove.
Loving it and you like a bad addiction,
because with you, I’ve lost all sanity.
I can’t help but need this prescription,
because you keep pulling me in like gravity.
I don’t know if what I feel is real,
but I know you’re my necessity.
I guess time will slowly reveal,
but you give me a sense of familiarity.
I see it in the way you breathe;
you feel this, too.
Your decision is making you seethe;
body answers me before your words ever do.
You’re dangerous because it’s more than physical,
words wrapping around me like warm hands.
There’s a pull into the metaphysical;
you’re the only one who understands.
Your words and voice lure me in like a spell,
and I’m not sure what to feel or believe.
Powerless beneath the pull you compel,
this is something we conceived.
There’s a pull in you that mirrors the one in me,
and your silence betrays you.
Your soul still reaches for me,
inked into you like a tattoo.
The ache in you is building tension,
claim it like you claimed me.
Let me be your redemption,
because together we are a dangerous army.
The world can watch in envy;
we have something they’ll never possess.
Only we can experience this intensity,
a thrill that leaves others breathless.
11/16/2025
Louder Than the Doubt
Louder Than the Doubt
(Verse 1)
They wrote me off like damaged goods
Said I would go to orphanhood
Closed the doors and ignored my pleas
Treated me like a rare disease
(Pre-Chorus)
Every person who turned their back on me
Silently screaming a dark decree
(Chorus)
I am louder than the doubt, louder than the fear,
I turned the echoes of their whispers my own souvenir.
Through the dark and the light, I will still fight
I rose and I became, thanking them in hindsight
(Verse 2)
Every mocking tease and joke,
Love that tested limits, hearts broke.
Stitched my edges even stronger
Built a wall to stop the slaughter
(Pre-Chorus)
The lightning and thunder couldn’t stop me
Here I am, finally living carefree
(Chorus)
I am louder than the doubt, louder than the fear,
I turned the echoes of their whispers my own souvenir.
Through the dark and the light, I will still fight
I rose and I became, thanking them in hindsight
(Bridge)
I celebrated mornings I never thought I’d make,
Now I’m feeling I can finally be awake.
Now I look forward to every single sabotage
I no longer have to hide in my camouflage
All I ever needed was to believe in me
Every scar has led me to this great legacy
(Chorus)
I am louder than the doubt, louder than the fear,
I turned the echoes of their whispers my own souvenir.
Through the dark and the light, I will still fight
I rose and I became, thanking them in hindsight
Remembering How to Breathe
(Verse 1)
Morning light through blinds, coffee between our palms,
You speak in quiet confidence that settles calm.
Old stories folded in my pocket, pages burned,
Then you arrive and make my heart yearn.
(Pre-Chorus)
We move through rooms creating memories of a lifetime,
Simple yet the most perfect paradigm.
(Chorus)
You make me feel young and free again,
Like remembering how to breathe, on you I depend.
This love rewrites the definition of love that I thought I knew
You’re the one who makes me feel anew.
(Verse 2)
Evenings filled with honest talk, the kind that runs deep,
We have a love that others think is so mystique.
No fairy tales, but a rare find
Who knew love that feels so sublime?
(Pre-Chorus)
We trade our guarded edges for softness and trust,
Two people shaped by separate storms, now robust.
(Chorus)
You make me feel young and free again,
Like remembering how to breathe, on you I depend.
This love rewrites the definition of love that I thought it knew
You’re the one who makes me feel anew.
(Bridge)
There’s bravery in showing scars and faith in taking risks,
The quiet courage of being known and lost in the abyss.
Once a nightly prayer, an answered call
You are the one who can heal it all.
(Chorus)
You make me feel young and free again,
Like remembering how to breathe, on you I depend.
This love rewrites the definition of love that I thought it knew
You’re the one who makes me feel anew.
11/14/2025
Confined
(Verse 1)
I learned the shape of silence in the spaces left by everyone
Found the fingerprints of lies scarred deep and overdone.
Mirrors whisper secrets that I can’t unhear,
Every promise folded up and sold insincere.
I kept a jar of broken light, hoping for repair,
Watched it crumble and threadbare.
(Chorus)
Don’t ask me to believe, my unravelled soul
Not even my own heartbeat speaks to the open keyhole.
I don’t trust the hands that hold me, or my own mind,
There’s poison in the echo, and it’s serpentined.
(Verse 2)
Names like cemetery stones, I step around them, dreary
Familiar faces hollowed out, and I’m left teary.
I learned to count the casualties, soft words turned to knives,
Smiles that harvest daylight to leave me deprived.
(Pre-Chorus)
I taught my doubts to dress like angels, calling me home,
Now I answer to the hollow and I still roam.
(Chorus)
Don’t ask me to believe, my unravelled soul
Not even my own heartbeat speaks to the open keyhole.
I don’t trust the hands that hold me, or my own mind,
There’s poison in the echo, and it’s serpentined.
(Bridge)
If I could be forgiven by my own mind,
I’d kneel before the silence and beg not to be confined.
But the hiding can’t be seen,
I’m begging for someone to intervene.
Betrayed by light and love,
I can’t help but look above.
Betrayed by every confidant who taught me how to fight.
It was always my fault, looking back in hindsight.
(Chorus)
Don’t ask me to believe, my unravelled soul
Not even my own heartbeat speaks to the open keyhole.
I don’t trust the hands that hold me, or my own mind,
There’s poison in the echo, and it’s serpentined.
(Outro)
So leave your footprints on my memory and walk away,
I’ll hide the map to prevent our doomsday
If there’s comfort in a lie, I’ll continue to find it,
Because my heart will always be a hypocrite.
11/13/2025
Learned to Thrive
(Verse 1)
I wore the nights like winter coats, stitched with borrowed memories
Walked sidewalks made of echoes, carrying yesterday’s flames.
Rain learned all the secrets I tried to hide beneath my armor
But every puddle let out a silent screaming murmur.
(Pre-Chorus)
There’s a map beneath my scars, a compass carved in skin,
But these torn memories will never take over and win.
(Chorus)
I am a garden after storms, roots that learned to thrive
A lighthouse helping others survive.
What broke me taught me lessons, what bled me gave me life,
I bloom in places wrecked by storms, I lived through the strife.
(Verse 2)
There were mirrors made of paper, torn and scattered on the ground,
I taped them together and showed I can rebound.
Ash turned into chalk to write the lessons for my path,
And every line became a road that led me through the wrath.
(Pre-Chorus)
I learned to count the quiet, to trade my fear for hope,
I’m no longer walking on the long tightrope.
(Chorus)
I am a garden after storms, roots that learned to thrive
A lighthouse helping others survive.
What broke me taught me lessons, what bled me gave me life,
I bloom in places wrecked by storms, I lived through the strife.
(Bridge)
When the world insists on hate and loss,
Forgiveness is a river that flows in thoughts.
Hope is not a fragile vase but reality,
Life is anything but a tragedy.
Every bruise is just a poem folded in the pain,
And every step I take is louder and I remain.
(Chorus)
I am a garden after storms, roots that learned to thrive
A lighthouse helping others survive.
What broke me taught me lessons, what bled me gave me life,
I bloom in places wrecked by storms, I lived through the strife.
(Outro)
So let the clocks keep counting all the hours,
I’ve learned to dance in the showers.
When night returns, I’ll be the North Star,
and this’ll be another story in my memoir.
11/12/2025
Leasing Love On A Whim
(Verse 1)
You let me go like it was nothing at all,
Missed out on the long haul.
Crashing down like a tsunami wave,
But I rebuilt my world on better days.
Now you’re scrolling through the faded frame,
Wondering who is the flame
You traded depth for something that is broken
Now you feel the echo of words never spoken.
(Pre-Chorus)
You took something that was familiar
Just remember, second place is silver.
I’m steady where you found me fragile and free
Guess absence taught you what you couldn’t see.
(Chorus)
You gave me up and now you miss us
All because you were treasonous
I’m careful now, not leasing love on a whim.
I’m moved on, holding love only within
All you said was just empty words
I’m still the one you prefer
Now you dream of me late at night
While I’m living it up in the pale moonlight
(Verse 2)
You chase the easy thrill, but at what cost?
Upon your heart I have embossed.
You’re calling through the noise,
I’ll maintain my poise
I held my ground, you had the best
Now your heart is feeling suppressed
You send a message dressed in second thoughts,
Thinking gestures can stitch what time forgot.
(Bridge)
Regret’s a slow and honest kind of ache,
It shows up late and asks for one more break.
What are the chances of it happening again?
I think about it every now and then.
(Chorus)
You gave me up and now you miss us
All because you were treasonous
I’m careful now, not leasing love on a whim.
I’m moved on, holding love only within
All you said was just empty words
I’m still the one you prefer
Now you dream of me late at night
While I’m living it up in the pale moonlight
(Outro)
So come with better words than longing and luck
Don’t come around when you’re moonstruck.
I’m not a rescue or a safety net to mend the cracks
I want it all—not something that lacks.
The Crow’s Probe
(Verse 1)
I woke beside the heavy tomb,
A whisper left, impending doom.
Your scent still haunts the bitter air,
But you’re found nowhere.
They said love dies, but it’s a decree
It burns like a burn in third degree
I flew through the graves of what we were,
Digging for truth in the dirt and blur.
(Pre-Chorus)
Every heartbeat you caused to leap
I unearth in the places buried deep
(Chorus)
I’m the crow in distress
Pecking at the lies, I have to assess
Your ghost still lingers in my bones,
As I reminisce at the gravestone
Love’s not gone, it’s just transformed
Cold and black, just like the great storm.
(Verse 2)
Your eyes were candles in the storm,
Now hollow glass that won’t stay warm.
I trace the crime of love’s last breath,
Every touch, a clue to death.
I follow trails of broken tales,
Your voice in the wind, your scent in trails
In the ruin, I found your memory,
Written in soot, like an abandoned penitentiary.
(Pre-Chorus)
You taught me how to live with this bloodstain
Now I wear your memory like a rugged terrain.
(Chorus)
I’m the crow that is in distress
Pecking at the lies, I have to assess
Your ghost still lingers in my bones,
As I reminisce at the gravestone
Love’s not gone, it’s just transformed
Cold and black, just like the great storm.
(Bridge)
Do you feel me in your afterglow?
Does it take you in with the undertow?
I found the heart you buried deep,
It beats for me with a weep.
(Whispered)
I am your reckoning, your requiem’s ping
The truth is, I was your everything.
(Final Chorus)
I’m the crow in distress
Pecking at the lies, I have to assess
Our love’s a corpse that won’t decay,
It feeds the dark, it holds the deepest dismay.
Even the grave can’t make me forget
The crow still asks, “How is the regret?”
11/09/2025
Worse Than the Rest
(Verse 1)
You said you were nothing like rest,
So I decided to give it a try.
You mirrored everything I wanted,
And I was foolish to buy the lie.
You held my heart like fragile glass,
Then dropped it just to see it break.
I thought I’d learned from all the past,
But you were just a better fake.
(Pre-Chorus)
You played the part so well
Like love was your prize.
I saw the truth too late to swell,
The devil eyes tend to mesmorize.
(Chorus)
You said you’d be different,
Turns out you’re worse than the rest.
You lit a fire, watched it burn,
But it was all just in jest.
I thought you were healing,
But you’re another wound to mend.
You said you’d be different,
But you were worse in the end.
(Verse 2)
You made me believe in love again,
Just to leave me in the cold.
Every “I love you” that you whispered
Turned into black mold.
You manipulated to what I wanted to hear,
But your words were paper-thin.
You taught me love doesn’t exist,
It’s a battle I’ll never win.
(Pre-Chorus)
You had all of my heart,
Then burned it and let it smoke.
Another promise torn apart,
Another heart broke.
(Chorus)
You said you’d be different,
Turns out you’re worse than the rest.
You lit a fire, watched it burn,
But it was all just in jest.
I thought you were healing,
But you’re another wound to mend.
You said you’d be different,
But you were worse in the end.
(Bridge)
Now I see through your lies,
Through your acting and betrayal.
You broke me just to prove a point,
That good men fade to dust.
And now the only thing I trust
Is me, not love.
(Chorus)
You said you’d be different,
Turns out you’re worse than the rest.
You lit a fire, watched it burn,
But it was all just in jest.
I thought you were healing,
But you’re another wound to mend.
You said you’d be different,
But you were worse in the end.
(Outro)
You were never different,
You were just better at pretending to be.
Victor
Storms crashed down,
but still I survived.
Stronger than a phoenix,
an anomaly of strength.
Stronger soul today,
no regrets to face.
Never held back by limitations,
a mentor to all the hopeful.
Life battles waging war,
but I’ll be the victor.
Admiration from those around,
inspiration for those to come.
10/30/2025
Silent Watcher
Just linger in the shadows,
a ghost hidden away.
I’m the one you superpose,
And now feeling a sense of dismay.
You see the smiles I imprint on you,
and wonder how I’m doing so well,
when you thought I’d subdue.
It’s everything you dwell.
Now you live with my memory,
in the loudness of your quiet night.
Watching me like the best documentary,
Looking at it in hindsight.
You take what little’s left of me
in glances I didn’t give freely.
Waiting for me to make my plea,
while I show myself steely.
Does it drive you crazy?
Is this not what you expected?
Looking back, is it hazy?
Are you feeling rejected?
Engraving
Verse 1
You had gold in your hands,
But you let it slip through like the sands.
You turned your back while I soared
Now this cataclysmic love will never be restored.
You threw away the one thing you manifested
You were never fully invested.
Chorus
Now you’re standing in the ruins of maybe,
Wishing you’d fought when you still could’ve saved me.
Found something so pristine
You’re haunted by what I mean.
It’s too late for amazing
You’ll be left with this engraving
Verse 2
Mistook my kindness for desperation
When really I was your only salvation
Now the heavens forever cry for you
Because you threw away something true.
Now every memory and echo calls my name,
And you finally feel the heat of the flame.
Chorus
Now you’re standing in the ruins of maybe,
Wishing you’d fought when you still could’ve saved me.
Found something so pristine
You’re haunted by what I mean.
It’s too late for amazing
You’ll be left with this engraving
Bridge
I was the prize you let go
You’ll never experience the afterglow
Lost in your own misery
What we had is history
Chorus
Now you’re standing in the ruins of maybe,
Wishing you’d fought when you still could’ve saved me.
Found something so pristine
You’re haunted by what I mean.
It’s too late for amazing
You’ll be left with this engraving
10/28/2025