emotional struggle

Indifference

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I’ll never leave you.
You’re unlike anyone else.

I’ll wait forever for you.
I’m coming back.
Never leaving your side.
This is as special as you.
Be in my life forever.

I bought it for you,
I’d never live up to what you deserve.
I’ve never been enough for anyone, even you.

You deserve all the great things.
The biggest heart I’ve ever met.
I’d give it all for you.
Unlike anyone else.

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This isn’t goodbye.
This is see you later.

I can’t do this.
Everything you know is here.
I can’t do this.
I’m sorry.

There are things you don’t understand.
You don’t want to move.

I’m not worthy.
It’s not my choice.
You don’t understand.

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The silence to the noise.
The lies to the truth.
The stillness in the chaos.

Deprived

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Deprived of air when drowning,
unable to comprehend the feeling.
Thoughts dancing in your head, shouting,
leaving you reeling.

Deprived of being truly sated,
you craved from the moment we met.
Now you’re left feeling sedated,
living with daily thoughts of regret.

You need me like fish need water,
like humans need oxygen.
Now your heart is going through slaughter,
wishing to see me once again.

I was everything you dreamed of,
but now you’re deprived.
I was your soul tie, twin flame love,
and I’m not sure it can be revived.

Haunting Memories

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She was rare, and I lost it
Crossing my mind all the time
True love gone, my heart’s accosted
Replaying our moments like a crime

I found what I was missing in her,
But threw it away for familiar
A love and world I longed for
My heart aches and is bitter

I check on her time and again
Wondering if there’s still a chance
Caught with the echoes, I can’t abstain
Trapped in memory, hoping for one more dance

Inside jokes haunt every corner
Laughing like kids, young again
Now I’ve become a silent mourner
Longing for memories that transcend

I miss her smell and the way she tastes
The moments with her, I still embrace
I miss the laugh and smile on her face
A feeling no one will ever replace

The way she used to hold me close
Her eyes stared into my soul
Chemistry and love, I miss the most
Piercing deep, lingering, dark, and whole

She understood me like no one else
Two people bound to meet as one
Touched my soul, I hid from myself
A story written that can’t be undone

I miss her more than words can say
Haunted by the wrong choice
My heart yearns and feels betrayed
Regrets shadow follows, paying the price

Watching her breathe as she sleeps
Calming my once rabid beast
Dreams untouched, my heart leaps
Held my chaos with peace

The way her body reacts to mine
Craving for her soft skin
Every touch feels divine
The touch pulls me to sin

Walking the streets hand in hand
Pulling her close, letting silence speak
Side by side in a moment, we don’t understand
Moments like this are all I seek

Baring my soul for her to judge
Waiting for her to run away
As she accepted me for who I was
Lost in regret, words can’t convey

From the first conversation, I fell in love
She was so different than anyone before
Feeling so deep, I only dreamt of
Her presence changed my inner core

She had everything I searched for
A free spirit, even though hurt deep
The missing piece I adore
A love so fierce, I long to keep

Every goodbye was harder
But the last ripped me apart
The pain of bye leaves me scarred
The choice I made now tears my heart

11/18/2025

Revert Time

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There’s a chill in the air,
as if your eyes trace my outline.
You’ve stepped into my snare,
and now we’re intertwined.
Just make the move you long for,
and I’ll be yours forevermore.

This happened by chance,
and it took me by surprise.
An unforgettable romance,
no one else has been able to provide.
And I can’t seem to let it go,
your memory haunts me in the undertow.

You found pieces of me I kept hidden,
but you opened them with ease.
In places where pain had ridden,
you touched my heart and brought me peace.
With you, I could be myself,
all the parts guarded, you knew well.

A side of me I forgot existed
happiness and laughter that’s been missing.
A spark, awakened, no longer resisted
a warmth returning and glistening.
I’m a fool for you,
and I’d do anything you asked me to.

It was a connection like no other,
like discovering my long-lost friend.
Souls that recognized each other,
an unexpected beginning I didn’t intend.
But it all crashed down,
silence echoing where love once drowned.

When did it all go wrong?
Was it all in my head?
Was the answering whispering all along?
Was it hope held by a fragile thread?
Just another name to add to the list,
Once was bliss, now a ghost in the mist.

Do I suffocate myself or let it go?
I don’t want to try anymore.
Do I vanish or watch myself grow?
I thought I found something worth fighting for.
This was an unexpected attack,
a hit that has a lasting impact.

And now I’m here in silence, alone.
The sun never rises, always midnight.
Quiet memories we used to call our own,
my heart swallowed by the void of light.
An emptiness that lingers within,
finding love, I’ll never win.

I know the way you watch
tells me everything you won’t say aloud.
Burns in your heart and mine like a torch
a longing whisper of words you won’t allow.
If fate allowed, I ache for those moments
their echoes remain, stubborn and torments.

It’s a battle I fight every day,
wishing to wipe my mind clean before you came.
Storms are brewing inside and won’t go away,
thoughts undone, every thought aflame.
Despite the pain, I wouldn’t revert time;
every memory was sublime and made my soul climb.

11/17/2025

Worse Than the Rest

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(Verse 1)
You said you were nothing like rest,
So I decided to give it a try.
You mirrored everything I wanted,
And I was foolish to buy the lie.
You held my heart like fragile glass,
Then dropped it just to see it break.
I thought I’d learned from all the past,
But you were just a better fake.

(Pre-Chorus)
You played the part so well
Like love was your prize.
I saw the truth too late to swell,
The devil eyes tend to mesmorize.

(Chorus)
You said you’d be different,
Turns out you’re worse than the rest.
You lit a fire, watched it burn,
But it was all just in jest.
I thought you were healing,
But you’re another wound to mend.
You said you’d be different,
But you were worse in the end.

(Verse 2)
You made me believe in love again,
Just to leave me in the cold.
Every “I love you” that you whispered
Turned into black mold.
You manipulated to what I wanted to hear,
But your words were paper-thin.
You taught me love doesn’t exist,
It’s a battle I’ll never win.

(Pre-Chorus)
You had all of my heart,
Then burned it and let it smoke.
Another promise torn apart,
Another heart broke.

(Chorus)
You said you’d be different,
Turns out you’re worse than the rest.
You lit a fire, watched it burn,
But it was all just in jest.
I thought you were healing,
But you’re another wound to mend.
You said you’d be different,
But you were worse in the end.

(Bridge)
Now I see through your lies,
Through your acting and betrayal.
You broke me just to prove a point,
That good men fade to dust.
And now the only thing I trust
Is me, not love.

(Chorus)
You said you’d be different,
Turns out you’re worse than the rest.
You lit a fire, watched it burn,
But it was all just in jest.
I thought you were healing,
But you’re another wound to mend.
You said you’d be different,
But you were worse in the end.

(Outro)
You were never different,
You were just better at pretending to be.

Confined Heart

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Love once blossomed in my chest,
soft as morning light on grass.
Now it feels deeply oppressed
Withering away in the hourglass.

The air hums with what we were,
a tune that turns my stomach and makes me ache
Wishing I could turn you into a blur,
hoping each day I never wake.

My body reacts to the pain,
cutting deep into the abyss.
It was I that you slain,
yet, still, I will never remiss.

Permanent mark in my mind,
wishing I could expunge.
Daily fighting of feeling confined,
into the darkness I plunge.

10/26/2025