Confined

(Verse 1)
I learned the shape of silence in the spaces left by everyone
Found the fingerprints of lies scarred deep and overdone.
Mirrors whisper secrets that I can’t unhear,
Every promise folded up and sold insincere.

I kept a jar of broken light, hoping for repair,
Watched it crumble and threadbare.

(Chorus)
Don’t ask me to believe, my unravelled soul
Not even my own heartbeat speaks to the open keyhole.
I don’t trust the hands that hold me, or my own mind,
There’s poison in the echo, and it’s serpentined.

(Verse 2)
Names like cemetery stones, I step around them, dreary
Familiar faces hollowed out, and I’m left teary.
I learned to count the casualties, soft words turned to knives,
Smiles that harvest daylight to leave me deprived.

(Pre-Chorus)
I taught my doubts to dress like angels, calling me home,
Now I answer to the hollow and I still roam.

(Chorus)
Don’t ask me to believe, my unravelled soul
Not even my own heartbeat speaks to the open keyhole.
I don’t trust the hands that hold me, or my own mind,
There’s poison in the echo, and it’s serpentined.

(Bridge)
If I could be forgiven by my own mind,
I’d kneel before the silence and beg not to be confined.
But the hiding can’t be seen,
I’m begging for someone to intervene.
Betrayed by light and love,
I can’t help but look above.
Betrayed by every confidant who taught me how to fight.
It was always my fault, looking back in hindsight.

(Chorus)
Don’t ask me to believe, my unravelled soul
Not even my own heartbeat speaks to the open keyhole.
I don’t trust the hands that hold me, or my own mind,
There’s poison in the echo, and it’s serpentined.

(Outro)
So leave your footprints on my memory and walk away,
I’ll hide the map to prevent our doomsday
If there’s comfort in a lie, I’ll continue to find it,
Because my heart will always be a hypocrite.

11/13/2025

Even When I Knew

I knew it wouldn’t last.
You were lightning:
bright, wild, gone before I could catch.
And still, I stood in the storm
pretending it was enough.

I saw the ending like a shadow
waiting just behind your smile.
But, it still hurts.

Knowing
doesn’t make the loss any easier
it just makes me feel gullible
for hoping it’d be real,
for believing love could rewrite the laws of gravity and find me.

Now I’m left with ghosts of what would never be,
playing memories like they’re proof
that something real once tried to exist.

And I keep asking myself
why I miss a dagger
that was always meant to kill me.

10/26/2025