Like a red diamond on display,
admired from a distance.
Waiting for the day to break away,
but keep getting met with resistance.
My heart smoothed with vantablack,
looking empty, but filled with just.
Waiting for it to be swept back,
but constantly filled with cosmic dust.
A total eclipse happening once,
hiding behind the facade.
Hiding behind all fronts,
despite being attractive like a lighting rod.
Ancient Rome concrete,
where stories lie.
Never admitting to defeat,
building strength, and intensify.
Silence of the mind,
an impossible task.
Coming undone, unconfined,
finally showing what’s under the mask.
Hardly touched, like lunar rocks,
spoken of but rarely experienced.
Can’t contain like Pandora’s Box,
once experienced like an euphoriant.
Her love was like a natural pearl,
wild, free, but hardly produced.
But she cried for it to be unfurled,
but becomes more rare as reduced.
An amber with no imperfections,
hard to find, but so divine.
Never receiving reciprocal affections,
but kater seen on others’ shrine.
A single snowflake drifting in,
unlike any other you’ll ever find.
Feeling the regret deep within,
all because he was blind.
The Mona Lisa, appreciated too late,
she was a force that imprinted deep.
One that you cannot recreate,
but you’ll dream about her in your sleep.
A fingerprint on the heart,
no one will compare to her.
You’ll regret the day of depart,
she was the the rarest thing to occur.
Depression
I’m Fine (But Not Okay)
Verse 1
The morning air feels like winter now,
Another day of numb feeling.
A smile appears when I allow
All it does is keep concealing.
People say I’m strong,
But they don’t see what I hide.
I’ve been breaking all along,
Still, I push these feelings aside.
Chorus
I’m fine, but not okay,
It’s a facade I portray.
I’ll make it, I always do,
No matter how much it breaks me in two.
I’m fine, which is what I’ll say,
But inside I fade away.
I’ll keep playing in this game show,
Because surviving’s all I know.
Verse 2
The mirror shows a ghost,
Eyes really tell the truth.
But deep down, the truth haunts,
Fighting my internal thoughts.
Hope’s a flame slowly withering away,
But still burning in some way.
Every night I take a deep breath,
As I wait for my sudden death.
Chorus
I’m fine, but not okay,
It’s a facade I portray.
I’ll make it, I always do,
No matter how much it breaks me in two.
I’m fine, which is what I’ll say,
But inside, I fade away.
I’ll keep playing in this game show,
Because surviving’s all I know.
Bridge
And maybe someday I’ll feel light,
When the thoughts don’t make me want to fight.
But till, I’ll play pretend,
Smile through storms that never end.
Chorus
I’m fine, but not okay,
It’s a facade I portray.
I’ll make it, I always do,
No matter how much it breaks me in two.
I’m fine, which is what I’ll say,
But inside, I fade away.
I’ll keep playing in this game show,
Because surviving’s all I know.
Outro
I’m fine…
But not okay.
Angel Boucher 