Songs

I’m Fine (But Not Okay)

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Verse 1
The morning air feels like winter now,
Another day of numb feeling.
A smile appears when I allow
All it does is keep concealing.

People say I’m strong,
But they don’t see what I hide.
I’ve been breaking all along,
Still, I push these feelings aside.

Chorus
I’m fine, but not okay,
It’s a facade I portray.
I’ll make it, I always do,
No matter how much it breaks me in two.
I’m fine, which is what I’ll say,
But inside I fade away.
I’ll keep playing in this game show,
Because surviving’s all I know.

Verse 2
The mirror shows a ghost,
Eyes really tell the truth.
But deep down, the truth haunts,
Fighting my internal thoughts.

Hope’s a flame slowly withering away,
But still burning in some way.
Every night I take a deep breath,
As I wait for my sudden death.

Chorus
I’m fine, but not okay,
It’s a facade I portray.
I’ll make it, I always do,
No matter how much it breaks me in two.
I’m fine, which is what I’ll say,
But inside, I fade away.
I’ll keep playing in this game show,
Because surviving’s all I know.

Bridge
And maybe someday I’ll feel light,
When the thoughts don’t make me want to fight.
But till, I’ll play pretend,
Smile through storms that never end.

Chorus
I’m fine, but not okay,
It’s a facade I portray.
I’ll make it, I always do,
No matter how much it breaks me in two.
I’m fine, which is what I’ll say,
But inside, I fade away.
I’ll keep playing in this game show,
Because surviving’s all I know.

Outro
I’m fine…
But not okay.

Louder Than the Doubt

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Louder Than the Doubt

(Verse 1)
They wrote me off like damaged goods
Said I would go to orphanhood
Closed the doors and ignored my pleas
Treated me like a rare disease

(Pre-Chorus)
Every person who turned their back on me
Silently screaming a dark decree

(Chorus)
I am louder than the doubt, louder than the fear,
I turned the echoes of their whispers my own souvenir.
Through the dark and the light, I will still fight
I rose and I became, thanking them in hindsight

(Verse 2)
Every mocking tease and joke,
Love that tested limits, hearts broke.
Stitched my edges even stronger
Built a wall to stop the slaughter

(Pre-Chorus)
The lightning and thunder couldn’t stop me
Here I am, finally living carefree

(Chorus)
I am louder than the doubt, louder than the fear,
I turned the echoes of their whispers my own souvenir.
Through the dark and the light, I will still fight
I rose and I became, thanking them in hindsight

(Bridge)
I celebrated mornings I never thought I’d make,
Now I’m feeling I can finally be awake.
Now I look forward to every single sabotage
I no longer have to hide in my camouflage
All I ever needed was to believe in me
Every scar has led me to this great legacy

(Chorus)
I am louder than the doubt, louder than the fear,
I turned the echoes of their whispers my own souvenir.
Through the dark and the light, I will still fight
I rose and I became, thanking them in hindsight

Remembering How to Breathe

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(Verse 1)
Morning light through blinds, coffee between our palms,
You speak in quiet confidence that settles calm.
Old stories folded in my pocket, pages burned,
Then you arrive and make my heart yearn.

(Pre-Chorus)
We move through rooms creating memories of a lifetime,
Simple yet the most perfect paradigm.

(Chorus)
You make me feel young and free again,
Like remembering how to breathe, on you I depend.
This love rewrites the definition of love that I thought I knew
You’re the one who makes me feel anew.

(Verse 2)
Evenings filled with honest talk, the kind that runs deep,
We have a love that others think is so mystique.
No fairy tales, but a rare find
Who knew love that feels so sublime?

(Pre-Chorus)
We trade our guarded edges for softness and trust,
Two people shaped by separate storms, now robust.

(Chorus)
You make me feel young and free again,
Like remembering how to breathe, on you I depend.
This love rewrites the definition of love that I thought it knew
You’re the one who makes me feel anew.

(Bridge)
There’s bravery in showing scars and faith in taking risks,
The quiet courage of being known and lost in the abyss.
Once a nightly prayer, an answered call
You are the one who can heal it all.

(Chorus)
You make me feel young and free again,
Like remembering how to breathe, on you I depend.
This love rewrites the definition of love that I thought it knew
You’re the one who makes me feel anew.

11/14/2025

Confined

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(Verse 1)
I learned the shape of silence in the spaces left by everyone
Found the fingerprints of lies scarred deep and overdone.
Mirrors whisper secrets that I can’t unhear,
Every promise folded up and sold insincere.

I kept a jar of broken light, hoping for repair,
Watched it crumble and threadbare.

(Chorus)
Don’t ask me to believe, my unravelled soul
Not even my own heartbeat speaks to the open keyhole.
I don’t trust the hands that hold me, or my own mind,
There’s poison in the echo, and it’s serpentined.

(Verse 2)
Names like cemetery stones, I step around them, dreary
Familiar faces hollowed out, and I’m left teary.
I learned to count the casualties, soft words turned to knives,
Smiles that harvest daylight to leave me deprived.

(Pre-Chorus)
I taught my doubts to dress like angels, calling me home,
Now I answer to the hollow and I still roam.

(Chorus)
Don’t ask me to believe, my unravelled soul
Not even my own heartbeat speaks to the open keyhole.
I don’t trust the hands that hold me, or my own mind,
There’s poison in the echo, and it’s serpentined.

(Bridge)
If I could be forgiven by my own mind,
I’d kneel before the silence and beg not to be confined.
But the hiding can’t be seen,
I’m begging for someone to intervene.
Betrayed by light and love,
I can’t help but look above.
Betrayed by every confidant who taught me how to fight.
It was always my fault, looking back in hindsight.

(Chorus)
Don’t ask me to believe, my unravelled soul
Not even my own heartbeat speaks to the open keyhole.
I don’t trust the hands that hold me, or my own mind,
There’s poison in the echo, and it’s serpentined.

(Outro)
So leave your footprints on my memory and walk away,
I’ll hide the map to prevent our doomsday
If there’s comfort in a lie, I’ll continue to find it,
Because my heart will always be a hypocrite.

11/13/2025

Learned to Thrive

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(Verse 1)
I wore the nights like winter coats, stitched with borrowed memories
Walked sidewalks made of echoes, carrying yesterday’s flames.
Rain learned all the secrets I tried to hide beneath my armor
But every puddle let out a silent screaming murmur.

(Pre-Chorus)
There’s a map beneath my scars, a compass carved in skin,
But these torn memories will never take over and win.

(Chorus)
I am a garden after storms, roots that learned to thrive
A lighthouse helping others survive.
What broke me taught me lessons, what bled me gave me life,
I bloom in places wrecked by storms, I lived through the strife.

(Verse 2)
There were mirrors made of paper, torn and scattered on the ground,
I taped them together and showed I can rebound.
Ash turned into chalk to write the lessons for my path,
And every line became a road that led me through the wrath.

(Pre-Chorus)
I learned to count the quiet, to trade my fear for hope,
I’m no longer walking on the long tightrope.

(Chorus)
I am a garden after storms, roots that learned to thrive
A lighthouse helping others survive.
What broke me taught me lessons, what bled me gave me life,
I bloom in places wrecked by storms, I lived through the strife.

(Bridge)
When the world insists on hate and loss,
Forgiveness is a river that flows in thoughts.
Hope is not a fragile vase but reality,
Life is anything but a tragedy.
Every bruise is just a poem folded in the pain,
And every step I take is louder and I remain.

(Chorus)
I am a garden after storms, roots that learned to thrive
A lighthouse helping others survive.
What broke me taught me lessons, what bled me gave me life,
I bloom in places wrecked by storms, I lived through the strife.

(Outro)
So let the clocks keep counting all the hours,
I’ve learned to dance in the showers.
When night returns, I’ll be the North Star,
and this’ll be another story in my memoir.

11/12/2025

Leasing Love On A Whim

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(Verse 1)
You let me go like it was nothing at all,
Missed out on the long haul.
Crashing down like a tsunami wave,
But I rebuilt my world on better days.
Now you’re scrolling through the faded frame,
Wondering who is the flame
You traded depth for something that is broken
Now you feel the echo of words never spoken.

(Pre-Chorus)
You took something that was familiar
Just remember, second place is silver.
I’m steady where you found me fragile and free
Guess absence taught you what you couldn’t see.

(Chorus)
You gave me up and now you miss us
All because you were treasonous
I’m careful now, not leasing love on a whim.
I’m moved on, holding love only within
All you said was just empty words
I’m still the one you prefer
Now you dream of me late at night
While I’m living it up in the pale moonlight

(Verse 2)
You chase the easy thrill, but at what cost?
Upon your heart I have embossed.
You’re calling through the noise,
I’ll maintain my poise
I held my ground, you had the best
Now your heart is feeling suppressed
You send a message dressed in second thoughts,
Thinking gestures can stitch what time forgot.

(Bridge)
Regret’s a slow and honest kind of ache,
It shows up late and asks for one more break.
What are the chances of it happening again?
I think about it every now and then.

(Chorus)
You gave me up and now you miss us
All because you were treasonous
I’m careful now, not leasing love on a whim.
I’m moved on, holding love only within
All you said was just empty words
I’m still the one you prefer
Now you dream of me late at night
While I’m living it up in the pale moonlight

(Outro)
So come with better words than longing and luck
Don’t come around when you’re moonstruck.
I’m not a rescue or a safety net to mend the cracks
I want it all—not something that lacks.

Maginot Line

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(Verse 1)
I built my walls to protect my homeland
Stone by stone, so no one reached the command
Too close to the fault lines that were stressed
Where love once lived, but is now oppressed

Every promise turned to smoke,
Now we’re wearing the mourning cloak
So I drew my borders deep and intensified
A fortress where my ghosts reside.

(Pre-Chorus)
I’ve sealed the gates because of you
Now no one will ever get through

(Chorus)
This heart’s a Maginot Line,
No more possibilities of war crimes
Built from endless sleepless nights
I’m my own white knight
You can keep trying to impede
But love’s a war I’ll never need.
I’m fortified by my own design
Behind the Maginot Line.

(Verse 2)
You say it’s time to reunite,
But I’ve seen the dawn betray the night.
Every tender word’s a white lie,
Every touch is a battle cry.

I don’t trust your battle fight,
You hint at the need for requite.
I’ve learned that love’s a losing game,
Where every victory ends inflames

(Pre-Chorus)
So I raise the walls again,
My heart is wearing thin.

(Chorus)
This heart’s a Maginot Line,
No more possibilities of war crimes
Built from endless sleepless nights
I’m my own white knight
You can keep trying to impede
But love’s a war I’ll never need.
I’m fortified by my own design
Behind the Maginot Line.

(Bridge)
Maybe someday it’ll crumble down
By then, it’ll be a ghost town
But not tonight, I protect my own
Not with the unknown

(Chorus)
This heart’s a Maginot Line,
No more possibilities of war crimes
Built from endless sleepless nights
I’m my own white knight
You can keep trying to impede
But love’s a war I’ll never need.
I’m fortified by my own design
Behind the Maginot Line.

11/10/2025

The Crow’s Probe

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(Verse 1)
I woke beside the heavy tomb,
A whisper left, impending doom.
Your scent still haunts the bitter air,
But you’re found nowhere.

They said love dies, but it’s a decree
It burns like a burn in third degree
I flew through the graves of what we were,
Digging for truth in the dirt and blur.

(Pre-Chorus)
Every heartbeat you caused to leap
I unearth in the places buried deep

(Chorus)
I’m the crow in distress
Pecking at the lies, I have to assess
Your ghost still lingers in my bones,
As I reminisce at the gravestone
Love’s not gone, it’s just transformed
Cold and black, just like the great storm.

(Verse 2)
Your eyes were candles in the storm,
Now hollow glass that won’t stay warm.
I trace the crime of love’s last breath,
Every touch, a clue to death.

I follow trails of broken tales,
Your voice in the wind, your scent in trails
In the ruin, I found your memory,
Written in soot, like an abandoned penitentiary.

(Pre-Chorus)
You taught me how to live with this bloodstain
Now I wear your memory like a rugged terrain.

(Chorus)
I’m the crow that is in distress
Pecking at the lies, I have to assess
Your ghost still lingers in my bones,
As I reminisce at the gravestone
Love’s not gone, it’s just transformed
Cold and black, just like the great storm.

(Bridge)
Do you feel me in your afterglow?
Does it take you in with the undertow?
I found the heart you buried deep,
It beats for me with a weep.

(Whispered)
I am your reckoning, your requiem’s ping
The truth is, I was your everything.

(Final Chorus)
I’m the crow in distress
Pecking at the lies, I have to assess
Our love’s a corpse that won’t decay,
It feeds the dark, it holds the deepest dismay.
Even the grave can’t make me forget
The crow still asks, “How is the regret?”

11/09/2025

Worse Than the Rest

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(Verse 1)
You said you were nothing like rest,
So I decided to give it a try.
You mirrored everything I wanted,
And I was foolish to buy the lie.
You held my heart like fragile glass,
Then dropped it just to see it break.
I thought I’d learned from all the past,
But you were just a better fake.

(Pre-Chorus)
You played the part so well
Like love was your prize.
I saw the truth too late to swell,
The devil eyes tend to mesmorize.

(Chorus)
You said you’d be different,
Turns out you’re worse than the rest.
You lit a fire, watched it burn,
But it was all just in jest.
I thought you were healing,
But you’re another wound to mend.
You said you’d be different,
But you were worse in the end.

(Verse 2)
You made me believe in love again,
Just to leave me in the cold.
Every “I love you” that you whispered
Turned into black mold.
You manipulated to what I wanted to hear,
But your words were paper-thin.
You taught me love doesn’t exist,
It’s a battle I’ll never win.

(Pre-Chorus)
You had all of my heart,
Then burned it and let it smoke.
Another promise torn apart,
Another heart broke.

(Chorus)
You said you’d be different,
Turns out you’re worse than the rest.
You lit a fire, watched it burn,
But it was all just in jest.
I thought you were healing,
But you’re another wound to mend.
You said you’d be different,
But you were worse in the end.

(Bridge)
Now I see through your lies,
Through your acting and betrayal.
You broke me just to prove a point,
That good men fade to dust.
And now the only thing I trust
Is me, not love.

(Chorus)
You said you’d be different,
Turns out you’re worse than the rest.
You lit a fire, watched it burn,
But it was all just in jest.
I thought you were healing,
But you’re another wound to mend.
You said you’d be different,
But you were worse in the end.

(Outro)
You were never different,
You were just better at pretending to be.

Engraving

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Verse 1
You had gold in your hands,
But you let it slip through like the sands.
You turned your back while I soared
Now this cataclysmic love will never be restored.

You threw away the one thing you manifested
You were never fully invested.

Chorus
Now you’re standing in the ruins of maybe,
Wishing you’d fought when you still could’ve saved me.
Found something so pristine
You’re haunted by what I mean.
It’s too late for amazing
You’ll be left with this engraving

Verse 2
Mistook my kindness for desperation
When really I was your only salvation
Now the heavens forever cry for you
Because you threw away something true.

Now every memory and echo calls my name,
And you finally feel the heat of the flame.

Chorus
Now you’re standing in the ruins of maybe,
Wishing you’d fought when you still could’ve saved me.
Found something so pristine
You’re haunted by what I mean.
It’s too late for amazing
You’ll be left with this engraving

Bridge
I was the prize you let go
You’ll never experience the afterglow
Lost in your own misery
What we had is history

Chorus
Now you’re standing in the ruins of maybe,
Wishing you’d fought when you still could’ve saved me.
Found something so pristine
You’re haunted by what I mean.
It’s too late for amazing
You’ll be left with this engraving

10/28/2025